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It's official, I'm feeling like a cow. And quite frankly it doesn't matter what others think I look like, it matters how I feel. Do I really think I'm as big as a cow, no, but really I can't kick this ugh feeling. I have a friend and a sister who have been working their butts off to drop the pounds and I really feel like I'm just a lazy BUTT. I'm struggling with balancing my job, Addicus, Josh, cleaning the house, trying to help with dinner, Bible Study (x2), sleep, and me time. I'm really just not sure what to do. I am supposed to be training for a half marathon but I'm too afraid to tell anyone because I don't want to fail in the training and not run. HURGH! I have hit the biggest ucky feeling that I've had in a LONG LONG LONG LONG time! I need to do SOMETHING! Okay whining done, now let's see if I really do, SOMETHING. I honestly want to I just don't know when to work everything in!? Pointers!? Anyone!?

May you...

I'm not sure if you have ever heard of Rob Bell, but I simply think he is amazing. Never have I been so excited to learn about the Bible and so excited to have the stories of the Bible make sense to me. Rob Bell does that for me. He makes it all come to life and makes it all so exciting! When Josh and I first met one of the things I looked forward to doing was going over to his house to watch Rob Bell videos! We got to discuss the Bible through the videos and it provided such a deep start for us. Sad to say but we have somewhat fallen away from the bond those videos encouraged us to have. I have been seeking and seeking to see how we can get it back, but I'm not sure its a we thing really. I feel I am the one that needs to get it back and then approach Josh with it. Several times in my life I have strayed away from my faith and just recently I am getting back in to it. I still am not as disciplined as I need/want to be but I'm working on it. I've been doing group Bible Study for about 2 years, this summer was the first time I finished a full book, now by that I don't mean a full book and the questions so this Fall it is my goal to finish a full book and the questions! EVERYTHING, I know I can do it and I know it is all about discipline for me! I am actually doing 2 Bible Studies this fall simply because I feel the more I have to be accountable for, the more apt I am to find a way to work it in to my schedule! I know this may not have been an exciting blog to read but my mind is wandering and tired and ready for bed. I simply needed to get something out to hopefully make an empty space to be able to rest better! And I've been slacking on blogging and need to be more accountable here as well! SO, I am sleepy but I wanted to leave yall with this......

May you believe in God, but may you come to see that God believes in you, May you have faith in Jesus, but may you come to see that Jesus has faith that you can be like him, a person of love and compassion and truth, a person of forgiveness and peace and grace and joy and hope, May you be covered in the dust of your Rabbi, Jesus -Rob Bell, Dust

I completely agree that often times we feel not good enough for Him and not good enough for this or that but we need to wake up and realize its not about us, its about HIM, HE believes in us and HE knows we can do it, shouldn't that be all we need?!