MMMMOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!

It's official, I'm feeling like a cow. And quite frankly it doesn't matter what others think I look like, it matters how I feel. Do I really think I'm as big as a cow, no, but really I can't kick this ugh feeling. I have a friend and a sister who have been working their butts off to drop the pounds and I really feel like I'm just a lazy BUTT. I'm struggling with balancing my job, Addicus, Josh, cleaning the house, trying to help with dinner, Bible Study (x2), sleep, and me time. I'm really just not sure what to do. I am supposed to be training for a half marathon but I'm too afraid to tell anyone because I don't want to fail in the training and not run. HURGH! I have hit the biggest ucky feeling that I've had in a LONG LONG LONG LONG time! I need to do SOMETHING! Okay whining done, now let's see if I really do, SOMETHING. I honestly want to I just don't know when to work everything in!? Pointers!? Anyone!?