Lost in my emotions...

Earlier this evening I was paroozing facebook and became overwhelmed with feelings of sadness and anger. My heart breaks for the Heckel, Timmermeyer and Spears families. I work in a world where I shouldn't be surprised by the things human beings are capable of but when it comes to someone I actually know, I cannot grasp why someone would do this. This is not the first time I've experienced losing someone too soon and I tend to have a problem facing the reality. With Jenny I've had an especially hard time because I'm not there helping with all the events. There are days I log in to facebook and hope that I can see new pictures on Jenny's page, new posts from Jenny, just anything showing that it was all a dream. Instead I see the pictures from the evening before she was taken, I just smile at how awesome of a mom she was, spaghetti tacos were on the menu for her little man that night. And then I just get angry again, why? WHY? I'm so frustrated over the whole situation. I'm frustrated that someone would do it, I'm frustrated to not know more, I'm frustrated there are ignorant people in the community who don't understand the system and don't understand the KBI and HPD are doing everything they can, I'm simply FRUSTRATED. My heart is SO broken for the 5 year old boy who never gets to see his mommy again and doesn't quite understand why and my heart is SO broken for my classmate who never again gets to spend time with the woman who stole is heart. It just isn't fair and I can't seem to sort out any more thoughts or emotions that stem from this incident. I simply just pray every day, several times a day for everyone involved and I pray that each of you will as well!